First of all, I just want to thank all of you for all your excitement and love you have showed for me and Zane over our pregnancy. We had been reminded once again that we have the best friends and family!


But, I'm also writing to let you know that God decided it wasn't time for us to have a baby and I found out yesterday that the baby has stopped growing and no longer has a heart beat. We are very saddened but I have accepted that God has a wonderful plan for our family. It is still hard not to think about all things baby since I practically changed everything about my life for the health of our baby.I know our pregnancy wasn't planned, but once I found out I was going to be a mom, thats all I wanted to be. Now it's hard to think back on just wife terms. But now God has allowed Zane and I more time to spend strengthening our marriage, which is always needed.


I am scheduled next Wednesday to have a D&C, which is a procedure where they will scrape the contents of my uterus to clean it out. It needs to be cleaned so nothing stays there and causes an infection in my body. I could possibly have a natural miscarriage before then and I will experience a lot of bleeding and cramping, which the doctor said can be very scary.
Please pray for me that we will continue to find peace in this and not question why...please pray that my procedure will go smoothly...and please pray that we will have a healthy baby one day.